Sunday, May 8, 2011

Uprooted

Today is Mother's day...and I miss my mother. I don't talk about it a lot because it would merely upset everyone around me but I really miss her. So its been a very sad day for me. Its actually been a rough period for me here in my life, mostly because of the constant pain I live in from the migraine disorder...I don't know what else to try. Some days, I feel like I cant take any more pain. I also feel kind of uprooted from my religion because I haven't been able to do the ceremonies in the way I used to do them...mostly because of space issues and I think that has made me feel very imbalanced. In some ways, I feel like I am become a great deal darker in my outlook towards life and the universe now...and I feel adrift without anything to anchor me. The worst part of it is that I have no one I can talk to about these things. I am always surrounded by people but none of them could relate to any of this or worse, it would make them feel bad or hurt in some way. I don't know what to do. Something needs to give though, I cant keep dealing with all of it inwardly.

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  1. Hi Alex,

    I went to visit your videos today and sadly, they weren't there! Am I missing something?

    Anyway, I wanted to say how sorry I am that you're in such a place right now. I know how it feels to be discombobulated, without an anchor. Just know that this too shall pass . . . and quickly please!

    I'm wondering if you've given any thought to Reiki as a method to help with your migraines and pain. I know it's helped me a great deal and perhaps it would do the same for you. I'm a Reiki Master Practitioner and I'd be happy to do a distance session for you to see if it helps in any way. I have a website www.lovingheartreiki.com if you'd like more information.

    Also wanted to let you know that I set up a Triple Goddess Rosary page using the beautiful prayer you used in one of your videos. It's at http://triplegoddessrosary.blogspot.com/ if you'd like to have a look.

    Well, I've written a book here so will go for now . . . please feel better and know that you have friends that you can call on anytime!

    Blessed Be,
    Teresa
    http://mygoddess-self.com

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  2. Oops, sorry that should be http://mygoddess-self.blogspot.com

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  3. I am sorry to hear about your migraine disorder which has overflowed into other parts of your life as well? I don't know what you have tried all, but have you tried reiki? If you haven't, it could benefit you well!

    Blessings to you,

    Kim

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  4. BTW Alex, I also suffer from bad migraines. With me, I start to get tingling in each and every finger on my hands (I can actually feel the numbness move from finger to finger) and then I see spots so badly that I can't drive when I do get them. It is an aweful feeling and I suggested reiki because for one thing, I am a reiki practitioner and I also know that it works very well for me.

    I wish the best!

    Kim

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