Saturday, July 2, 2011

some better

Things are some better...although, the migraine pain comes and of the things that makes it so unbearable is the attitude people give you with it. Like it makes you weak or something just because you have a condition that is beyond your control. awful. Anyway, I feel some better and am taking it one day at time. Im going to talk to my dr about options and see what he says.
Thank you to everyone who has expressed love and concern towards me...I really appreciate it. I am still trying to learn to navigate around Some of it confuses me lol
Alex )O(

Sunday, May 8, 2011


Today is Mother's day...and I miss my mother. I don't talk about it a lot because it would merely upset everyone around me but I really miss her. So its been a very sad day for me. Its actually been a rough period for me here in my life, mostly because of the constant pain I live in from the migraine disorder...I don't know what else to try. Some days, I feel like I cant take any more pain. I also feel kind of uprooted from my religion because I haven't been able to do the ceremonies in the way I used to do them...mostly because of space issues and I think that has made me feel very imbalanced. In some ways, I feel like I am become a great deal darker in my outlook towards life and the universe now...and I feel adrift without anything to anchor me. The worst part of it is that I have no one I can talk to about these things. I am always surrounded by people but none of them could relate to any of this or worse, it would make them feel bad or hurt in some way. I don't know what to do. Something needs to give though, I cant keep dealing with all of it inwardly.

Friday, March 25, 2011

I am so tired of living in almost constant pain...even more I am SO tired of being sorry to everyone for being in pain. Its all too much sometimes...and there is no one who understands. There is no cure for migraine disorder. I have to figure out how to deal with all of it.